My Subconscious is Having a Field Day

Last night, I had 2 rather wierd dreams, both in reference to jobs/work that I did until about a year ago.

In the first dream, I was a Mary Kay consultant doing a skin care class. I was having a hard time finding the right shade of eye color for one of the people there, because MKC had done yet another overhaul on the product line. While that in itself isn't crazy, since it happens ALL THE TIME! The 'faces' at the party were a bit odd - they were pirates. Yes, pirates, and they were really getting ticked at the product changes that were happening, once again. Would YOU want to attempt to sell makeup to an angry pirate? I don't think so!

In the second dream, I was working at Taco Bell. Only, the restaurant was being run in my kitchen. The hot line was my sink and we were having trouble fitting all the food in there and there was issues with keeping hot water in the sink. There was also issues with bad food being delivered and we kept running out of hot food - but I don't recall seeing any customers.

I can say for certain, that I absolutely do not miss doing either of these things. In fact, I have only eaten Taco Bell one time in the past 10 months and that's only because my Mom brought it over for lunch one day. I just wish my subconsious would give it up!

Sleep Deprivation...

Sleep deprivation? I thought the newborn phase was supposed to be over by 6 weeks. I thought babies were supposed to be sleeping through the night by 3 or 4 months old.

My baby has slept through the night exactly 1 week out of the past 25. She's either staying up until 1am (or later) or waking up every 3 or 4 hours to eat.

Its amazing what sleep deprivation does to the mind. I'm always cold. I want to eat everything. I have no self-motivation or self-control. I have huge circles under my eyes. I have headaches all day.

And the worst...I feel like "nobody likes me, everybody hates me..." lately. I'm turning into a whiny, needy person and I hate that!

I am usually a rock. Independent, self-sufficient, resourceful. Not any more.

I need sleep!!!

I'm totally taking naps whenever I can to build up my energy level. I'm starting 5-Factor Fitness today.

Zzzzzzz....